Not a Lottery Winner

Just as the title suggests, I'm not the lottery winner type of girl. In life, I rarely win things. And no, I don't usually play the lottery. I know someone is gonna say, if you don't play then how could you win? Which is true, can't win if you don't play, but I'm also not delusional...the odds are against me (or so my husband say...and he's a smart man).  So I watch with envy when some out of work baker, who spent his last five dollars on a lottery ticket, wins fifty million, knowing that that will never be me...not even if I played my numbers every week. That's just not the way things roll in my life.

So what does this all mean? It means that I'm not gonna win the lottery in any other areas of my life either, including writing. It's awfully frustrating when I hear about the person who writes a novel in six months, queries briefly and then gets some holy crap amazing agent and then lands a six figure book deal, all in less than a year. Those are the lottery winners. We've all heard the stories. They go on to have best sellers and make gads of money. Color me green.

I'm not one of those people. I've accepted that. I'm the type of person who is gonna have to bust my ass to get my dream. Not to say that I haven't had my share of good luck...but it was good luck, being at the right place at the right time and working my tail off that got me there. It means I'm gonna be the author who does years of rewrites to get the ms just right. It means when my dream finally comes, I'm gonna weep with a mixture of joy and exhaustion.

Since I started down this publishing path, it's been a long haul, and at times I whine and bitch and think about quitting, but in the end this is the way things are...in order to achieve my dream I'm gonna have to work for it. But I'm not the kind of girl who shies away from hard work. I might have a fleeting moment or two where I think about how nice it would be to have something handed to me, but in the end I'd rather have faced a battle and come out victorious then wonder if I really deserved what I got.

So there it is. I'm not passing judgement on anyone who may have won their dream, I'm just saying that's not going to be the way things go for me.

I'll leave the lottery playing to my bff...she's promised to take care of me if she wins ;-)